Whats happening to me? pls pls pls help?

i think your GP should rerefer u to see a psychologist just in case you have other things going on, you need to be on the right medication. also people get strange harming thoughts all the time but often ingnore them, sounds like your in a bit of an anxiety cycle/ your also being a little paranoid. it could be just because you are stress out, upset/confused with life BUT i think its worth going over things again with your GP , as you are not happy with the antidepressants. he/she must be doing more to help you , if not you can always change your doctor.