Could you tell me, was it love?

hey um i dont know what love is just what it isnt and i kinda try to run from love not trip it and shove it in my bag or anything lol so im 16 and i met this guy that i like bunches but i have a bf and wasnt gonna dump him just fer this new guy but this new guy ima call him bob and my bf well be my bf lol so bob is 31 plz dont ***** me out about age bc he knows and told me nothing till im 18 so plz no worries there but anyway yea i liked him he was hot seet nice funny and i loved his daughter but he was way over controling of me and i wasnt even his gurl but yea and if we ever got in a fight (we would alot like every other day) he would cut me down like no tomorrow but he was trying to get better at not doing that but the stuff he said was crazy mean so i said ok bob im done with you we fight to much and the things you say are just mean so its time to stop talking (and much more was said) and its been about a week and a half without talking to him and its rele sad i miss him so much and just wanna talk to him but if i did he would only get a big head no wait bigger (he thinks so highly of himself) so i rele cant and i know its for the best but its just so hard ive cried everynight without talking to him and ive tried to od on pills again plz dont ***** me out sry but what do you think i have no idea oh and i di say i love you to him and yea he is thee first guy i said it to so what do you think:/...... and thx for listenin if i told ne 1 this my butt would be under the house and every one wld freak out on there snails lol so thx bye